Dear Jamie,
By the time you’d be reading this, I’d have gone very far from you. So far to never come back again. I know this is tough for you. But you are my strong little girl; please put a brave smile on the face because mama doesn’t want to see her darling princess cry.
I don’t know where to start but I wish you a very great life ahead. Remember you asked me why I used to cough so much, and I told you it’s just the infection. My cute doll, it wasn’t just that. To be very precise it was oropharynx tumor, or to say it simply, the throat cancer. I did not want you to know about my problem. I wanted you to see happy and cheerful during my last days.
Dear Jamie, do not cry after you don’t find me again in the dining room, or playing scrabbles with you, or making fun of your dad. These were the moments I took back along with me. My princess, life is very beautiful. Look forward to it (without me by your side).
I will be no more in the world to care of you as well as your dad. Oh yes, your, dad! Although he’d very well take care of you after I’m gone, I’m sure he’d need more care from your side.
My dear Jamie, your dad gave his everything to treat my cancer, he made a hell of his life to prevent me letting go, but without much success. Maybe destiny has something different in store for us.
Jamie, I’ve lot of things to discuss with you over this piece of letter. Please do not fight with your dad. I only told him to hide about my situation from you. I cannot see you depressed when I’m leaving or else I’d not be able to rest in peace. Today, I’m sure you’d be able to come terms to this loss.
Your dad will be depressed after my departure. I know Harry is a very good father, but if he takes care of you, who’ll take care of him? Please provide your father with anti-depressants whenever he strike panic attacks. I know he’ll not tell you, but I am sure he’s deeply hurt, as much as you are. But you cheer him up, I may not be around you physically, but my soul always watches you, wishes you and prays for you. Well, I don’t have any will or something but I can give you my Effexor medication kit to you. Jamie, do not laugh. Only you know what the story behind our Effexor prescriptions is. And yes, do tell again that Effexor brand name for venlafaxine as you forget again & again. Only you know what I mean by this. Keep our joke secret.
Jamie, I know you love to pop up Effexor medications as they provide pleasure. But please, you too take care of yourself & do not overdo the venlafaxine medications. Please consider as it my last wish. You can ask the doctor Franklin what are the side effects of this medicine & you can read Effexor reviews which have gone wrong. And one thing, Dr. Franklin too knew about my cancer. He’s our family doctor and very good friend of your dad. So please consult him whenever you feel the need. Refill your medication stocks before they get over. Again, take help of Dr. Franklin if you do not know where can you buy Effexor? Well, I used to order Effexor XR 75 mg. I am stating you this because maybe you can get rid of my thoughts with Effexor.
I just don’t want you guys to be depressed. Life is just like that. Everyone needs to bid goodbye to it someday. This was my day. Please Jamie, I know you’re crying after reading this but I beg you to be strong. You are my strong girl. That’s why I wrote the letter to you instead of Harry. This September you’ll turn sixteen but I’ll be not around to celebrate your 16th birthday. Never mind, the father-daughter duo are strong enough to celebrate it to fullest.
We are Smiths. We are a strong family. We do not cry. Promise me, no more crying for me. I am at peace here when I see you happy.
Please take care of yourself & Harry.
Your loving mother
Anna
(From abode of God)
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